How did I get here?
Maybe you’ve wondered why I’ve detoured so far from fitness and re-routed completely towards mindset & personal growth… Maybe you haven’t.
Either way, I’m ready to tell you the story.
It’s not going to be easy for me. I’m not completely comfortable delving into this wound, but I’ve been hiding it for far too long and I want you to know that no matter how much success it appears I’ve been having, it hasn’t always been like this.
My story starts in the budding days of summer when my business BOOMED.
The debut of my wildly successful 7 Day Summer Abs Challenge led to three new clients in a week with more consultations flowing throughout the month. I remember clinking glasses at my favorite sushi restaurant, smiling into my celebratory Mai Tai and feeling on top of the world.
When July rolled around, I nearly fell off my chair after I booked a $1600 client {a new record} and I was receiving emails left and right from clients who were enthralled with their results. By the end of July, I had pulled in the highest income month I’ve ever had in my entire LIFE.
I almost couldn’t believe it. Was I really engaging my passion and making enough money to support myself? My future felt bright and sparkly. How could things get any better?!
*hint, hint* They didn’t. As quickly as my business boomed,
it all came crashing down.
Sitting in the middle of my yard on a cool August evening, I recounted the cascade of misfortune that decided to show up in my life.
The $1600 client backed out.
Five consultations in a row were no-shows.
And on top of both of these things, I had signed up for a $13K coaching program, which I had no way of paying for.
I remember running my fingers through the freshly cut grass, feeling utter despair, anxiety, worry, and doubt. Just as quickly as I had climbed, I was back in the dirt.
Now, I can’t say that things never looked up again—they did—but they never got THAT good and as defeating as all of this had been, it forced me to get real with myself. Why did I experience so much success only to have it yanked from beneath me just as quickly?
In my quest to answer this question, I discovered the MOST important thing you can ever do for yourself when trying to create BIG things {or change} in your life:
WORK ON YOUR INNER GAME; WORK ON YOUR MIND.
And that’s where I fell short.
I had whacky belief systems that were working against me, not with me. My energy was ALL over the place. I was working myself to death. I was unhappy in the coaching program I had signed up for. And nothing was fun anymore.
I was walking on egg shells and I didn’t even know it… until they all cracked and I was forced to get up close to the darkness and figure out how the hell to get back into the light.
In an attempt to fix myself, I started to consume everything “inner game” I could get my hands on. I learned deeply about the flow of energy, about feeling good, about tapping into source. I learned deeply about manifesting and belief systems and daily practices… and I fell in love.
It was like coming home to myself.
With each book I read and each seminar I listened to, it was like a finding a piece of the map. Once I pieced it all together, I felt transformed.
And now, I’m experiencing mega success—from manifesting more than $4,000 in unexpected cash to selling as many ebooks as I wanted to sell in the WHOLE YEAR.
I’m back in the flow.
I’m back in that place of awe.
And it’s ALL because I turned inward and got real with myself.
So what’s the lesson here?
You might not always know why you’re in the dark or how long you’ll be there or what it will take to get you out, but you are there for a reason. You’re there to learn something about the next step in your life, which will only be revealed in time.
In my case, I needed to hit bottom; I needed to feel like a failure because without this experience, I wouldn’t have been called to go deeper and I wouldn’t have been led to an even deeper part of my mission, which is to WAKE PEOPLE UP—to teach people how to shift their thinking, how to tap into their power, how to tune into their intuition and feel good no matter what.
Yes, fitness is a part of this, but it isn’t the whole part, nor is it the most important part. So as far as I’m concerned, I am grateful for this wound and I am grateful that you’ve taken the time to read this.
If you’re struggling too, I hope you know that you’re not alone. I hope you know that there is hope; there is light in what you’re going through. And if you feel like reaching out, please do.
Tell me: what are you going through that feels like it has no end? What BIG thing do you want to create in your life that isn’t happening no matter how hard you try?
Comment below and let me know.
I acknowledge you. I see you. And you are not alone <3
With love & light,
-Kayla
Want to read more? Check out The One Thing You Need to Do to Create Massive Change in Your Life.
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