Self-awareness – Kayla MacArthur

May 21, 2021

What a Bad Surfer Taught Me About Hitting Home Runs

I learned something new this week: Ryan is pretty bad at surfing. Most days around 5pm, we close our computers and head down to the beach. While Ryan typically surfs in the gray dawn of morning, on Tuesday, he decided to bring his board. Knowing how fond he is of the sport, I was excited to witness him catch a wave. I mean, he’s surfed in Portugal, Australia, and Peru; he had a business training professional athletes; and he was a YES to Sayulita FOR surfing! He must be good, right?! After picking out an empty spot on the sand, I unfolded my chair, sat down, and scanned the horizon for...

December 18, 2020

Love in the Time of Corona

Create

“I’m sorry, but I don’t choose you as my person.” I remember Ryan’s face falling from across the table. It was Saturday night—the night before we moved to our separate apartments while his family came to visit. We had been dating for a few weeks and he was curious to know where my feelings were. From the beginning, Ryan was like a laser. He knew what he wanted—he knew I was who he wanted. I’ll never forget when he asked me out on our first date. He said, “you are everything I want in a woman and I’ve been searching the world for you. Can I please take you on...

June 17, 2020

The Three Gods

Create, Explore

One sunny morning in Canggu when Mark and I were waiting for his surf instructor, a Balinese woman appeared in the open space next to us and began blessing her storefront with the day’s offerings. She laid out colorful woven baskets, filled with flowers, incense, and bits of rice. Curls of smoke danced through the air and tickled our noses. As she bowed her head in silence, I wondered what she was praying about. When she opened her eyes, she dipped a small bristled brush in holy water and sprinkled each offering three times. Mark turned to me and said: “She does it in threes. Once for each of...

April 11, 2020

On Becoming Her

Explore, Reinvent

Towards the end of my trip, I was walking to the Green Window for breakfast when a little Balinese man slowed his motorbike and came to a full stop in front of me. He greeted me warmly, like we were old friends. He said: “You love your life. You love your life so much. I see it here.” {Pointing to my third eye}. “You are wide open. Your heart is wide, wide open.” Taken aback by his astute reflection, goosebumps prickled on my skin. Why, yes. I did love my life.And my heart was more open than the sky. If only my new friend could see me two weeks later—home...

December 4, 2019

The Secret to Profound Transformation

Reinvent

How do I stop myself from experiencing what I want most {love & freedom}? 1.) Obsession. Whether it’s love addiction, heartbreak, or a thrilling new project, I let obsession hijack my focus and drain my well-being. As a result, I tend to experience love OR freedom, but not both. 2.) Projecting fear {based on the past} into the future. I then proceed to live from THERE instead of from HERE, in an ever-expanding partnership with what’s possible. I shrink my world as opposed to open it up. Fear, uncertainty, and what’s predictable are the crayons I color with. 3.) Getting too attached to a specific RESULT and too rigid with...

May 24, 2019

Do You Experience Energetic Highs & Lows?

Reinvent

Do you give something your ALL, only to burn out? Feast or famine is typically something you think of when you think of money. It’s not so much something you think of when you think of energy.However, when feast or famine is the place you’re coming from, you tend to find it everywhere. It’s a cycle of extremes, where each extreme drives the other. It’s a cycle that can stretch over days, weeks, years—it doesn’t know time, it only knows high from low, up from down, everything from nothing and nothing in-between. It’s a cycle you can live in for life. And while you can create phenomenal things within its...

December 13, 2018

The Art of Feeling: When Presence & Sovereignty Collide

Reinvent

Something I’ve been practicing recently is holding and giving space to how I feel, without acting on or withdrawing from it. I’ve been practicing slowing down to experience the fullness of what’s available to me as a human and to give myself choice in how I respond, when I choose to. For most of my life, things have been different. For most of my life, my instinct has been: How do I express this feeling or make it go away? To be human is to feel. And what I find true for me and my people is that we struggle to BE WITH how we feel. We tend to act...

September 14, 2018

A Reminder For When You’ve Given All You’ve Got

Reinvent

You don’t have to carry the weight of worlds on your back. You don’t have to be a dumping ground for negativity. You don’t have to hold space for those who don’t hold it for you too. It is not your responsibility to provide peace to every person on the planet. You do not have to take this on when and where and with whom you don’t want to. Your energy is your gift to the world. Your presence and the way you share it is a gift. And without discernment, this beautiful gift can tarnish and turn the most precious thing to rust. {Advice for you, and mostly me}....

August 30, 2018

If You’re Feeling Stagnant…

Create, Reinvent

Where are you “waiting” in your life? What do you keep saying you want to do, but haven’t done yet? Over the past month, I’ve started to see all of the places where I’m waiting. I’m waiting to write until inspiration strikes. I’m waiting to hire my Coach at the 1:1 level. I’m waiting for my person to magically appear. I WAS waiting to ask for a raise at my part-time job, but I ended up doing that last week. {Yay!} The list goes on and on, from big things to little things and everything in-between. My mind wants me to believe that there will be a “right time”—that everything...

June 29, 2018

The Light & The Dark: What I’ve Learned About Speaking Your Truth

Reinvent

One of the greatest acts of self-love is speaking your truth. When you’re driving yourself mad from bottling up how you feel, when you’re flat out avoiding how you feel, when you’d rather ignore someone important than share how you really feel, your truth goes unexpressed. While speaking your truth may be the scariest, most uncomfortable, most difficult thing you could ever do, speaking your truth will set you free. All that energy you’re using to hide? It will release, redistribute, and realign to something better. I’ve learned this. Many times over the years and especially over the past month. The thing about me is that I’m very intuitive. It’s...